The 50 emotions you feel as you create.

As a creative entrepreneur, I go through this process. And every time, I ask myself: why is it so hard to be creative? Is it the same for you, too? Please tell me I'm not the only one!

 

Jubilant

 

You are have an idea! A solid, quickly-taking shape in your mind, idea. You scramble to gather a pencil and pen to sketch out your plan.

 

Eager

 

Inspiration is flowing from your pen to your paper. You. Have. Got. This.

 

Optimistic

 

This will be a work for the ages. People will study this. Be brought to tears. Maybe chuckle at your wit and soulfulness. “That bastard actually did it,” they’ll say. “She actually did it!’.

 

Introspective

 

Of course, people will want to interview you about your work. I mean, of course. When Terry Gross of Fresh Air asks what your project, you’ll say, “it’s all there, Terry. I put it ALL there.”

 

Smug

 

It’s just a matter of beginning. So you sit down to actually do the work.

 

Cheerful

 

30 minutes in, and it’s going great.

 

Confused

 

This isn’t looking like I thought it would look.

 

Frustrated

 

Why isn’t this working? It was so clear in my mind, but my execution is muddled.

 

Complacent

 

Well, maybe it’s not so bad.

 

Embarassed

Yes. It is that bad.

 

Overwhelmed

 

Why did you think you could do this? I mean, really. You? Do this? No.

 

Fed up

 

You walk away. You rethink the method. The project. Your life.

 

Resigned

 

You can’t do this, so don’t try.

 

Disillusioned

 

Why doesn’t anyone tell you just how hard it is to just sit down and do the work?

 

Rejected

 

And what does it matter, anyway? No one’s going to like it anyway. Time to surf the internet.

 

Inferior

 

Damn. There’s some talented people out there. Really talented. By that I mean, more talented than me, so why even try?

 

Helpless

 

Why did I even think I live in the same stratosphere as those geniuses, let alone the same hemisphere? We don’t breathe the same air.

 

Absorbed

 

No one in the history of time feels as bad as I do right now, and yes I’m including EVERYONE, so don’t look at me that way because I know it sounds bad to say it out loud but it’s the truth so just stop judging me.

 

Regretful

 

Why didn’t I work harder in chemistry class? I could have been a chemist. I would make a pretty good chemist.

 

Disliked

 

No one even really likes my stuff anyway. The people who said they liked it were lying.

 

Hateful

 

Those liars! How dare they lift my hopes, when I’m clearly a novice at best.

 

Revulsion

 

When I think about all the work I’ve shown to people...the work I was so proud of at the time. It’s all crap. I’m crap.

 

Contempt

 

My whole portfolio is junk...inferior, subpar, try-hard junk.

 

Melancholy

 

My brain hurts in a dull, heavy way. I’m just gonna go to bed.

 

Lonely

 

I’m the only person to feel like this. Why is it so much harder for me?

 

Defeated

 

Ok. This is my life. I’m the person who tried, and couldn’t do it. There are worse things.

 

Resigned

 

I’ll order a book on chemistry. Maybe it’s not too late to be a chemist.

 

Condemned

 

I can’t even be a chemist. Damn.

 

Exhausted

 

I’ll just go to bed, turn on Netflix, and watch every single episode of Family Guy in a row.

 

Bored

 

I’ve watched all of Family Guy, Futurama, both Sharknados, Law and Order SVU, and The Wire and The Blair Witch Project. Even Netflix is incredulous, asking me if I’m still watching. Time to rejoin the human race.

 

Indifferent

 

I’ve got nothing else to do. Eh, I guess I’ll look over this project again.

 

Cautious

 

Well, this might not be so bad. It just needs a little nudge here and there.

 

Agreeable

 

Maybe just an hour or two, just to get my sea legs back.

 

Trusting

 

Hey, now. I ‘m in the groove. If I don’t overthink it, it might be ok.

 

Hopeful

 

This isn’t a total waste of space. It might actually turn out to be somewhat good.

 

Pleased

 

I’m in the zone. I love being in the zone. The zone is good place to be.

 

Confident

 

I’m going to finish, and I’m going to love it. No one else may love it, but I do. And that’s what matters.

 

Pre-occupied

 

Don’t call me, text me, message me, knock on my door, send me a carrier pigeon, send up a flare, or knock on my door. I’m working.

 

Calm

 

This is work, but feels like yoga.

 

Comfortable

 

Creating and making are the house I live in, and the only place I want to be.

 

Brave

 

I’m going to try a few new things and see how it works out. It’s ok if it doesn’t, but I just have to see for myself.

 

Relaxed

 

Oh, wow, this is cool. Just. Wow.

 

Nervous

 

Coming towards the end...how do I recognize when it’s finished? Will I go one too far? Or not far enough.

 

Satisfied

 

I’m not sure if it’s totally finished, but I’m happy with my stopping point.

 

Receptive

 

Taking a big step back, I look everything over. Did I miss anything? Is there something there I hadn’t intended? Does it work?

 

Reflection

 

Walking away to take an even bigger step back. Revisit a few days, weeks, months sometimes years later. Look with fresh eyes. Breathe everything in and re-evaluate.

 

Happiness

 

I don’t mind signing my name to it.

 

Hopeful

 

Maybe someone will ‘get’ it. He or she will connect to it some way...even if it’s not the way I intended.

 

Curious

 

Open and receptive to my next project. I’m ready to create again.